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Well I'll try to be more active and I just wanted to let you guys know what happened to me. I didn't really quit going on the Java Hut so much as I just withdrew from everything.

*huggles*]]> Thu, 19 Aug 2010 01:28:30 Exanibble http://www.rbcorner.com/cgi-bin/eblah/Blah.pl?m-1281050103/ http://www.rbcorner.com/cgi-bin/eblah/Blah.pl?m-1281050103/#num1
They found a tumor in her chest and she was in a lot of pain, but she's free from it now.

It's just hard. I shall always miss my Jenna.  ]]> Thu, 5 Aug 2010 19:15:03 Rebel http://www.rbcorner.com/cgi-bin/eblah/Blah.pl?m-1280774647/ http://www.rbcorner.com/cgi-bin/eblah/Blah.pl?m-1280774647/#num1
But I have been away for.... I think a year... or two, but have returned! I still kept up to date with the latest Reboot news during my away though.

So this is kind of a thread saying "hello!" if you remember me, and saying "hello nice to meet you!" if you do not. ]]> Mon, 2 Aug 2010 14:44:07 Rebel http://www.rbcorner.com/cgi-bin/eblah/Blah.pl?m-1280248939/ http://www.rbcorner.com/cgi-bin/eblah/Blah.pl?m-1280248939/#num1
I can't even begin to state what exactly is wrong with me. If I didn't know better, I'd say I was getting depressed again, but I'm not. At least I don't feel like it. Other than an insistence that I stop reading and watching ST:TNG least I start writing a fan fic, I'm not listless.

Okay, no, that's a lie. I am...not listless, but restless I guess. To be honest, I've been dragging my feet since I came back from Denver earlier this month. And while I have done everything to not think about it on an hourly, daily, and weekly basis, I haven't been able to stop.

So I made the unofficial announcement that I'm gonna move. You would think that would alleviate a little bit of stress, but it doesn't seem to be helping. I'm not sure.

Maybe I'm stressed or disillusioned, I'm not sure. I know that I really want to leave Tucson for Denver, but I'm not making much of an effort to job hunt or anything like that. I know I'm starting to feel the strain of work and I really want to do something else, but I can't seem to bring myself to the point of telling my boss (who is an aquaintance friend).

I don't know. I'm not sure.

What the dell is wrong with me??]]> Tue, 27 Jul 2010 12:42:19 WebMistressGina66 http://www.rbcorner.com/cgi-bin/eblah/Blah.pl?m-1278743674/ http://www.rbcorner.com/cgi-bin/eblah/Blah.pl?m-1278743674/#num1
This is no vacation. It's an intensive two-week scholarship course at Bat World in Mineral Wells Texas. The purpose is to have interns certified for Chiroptera-specialized rehabilitation, release, and captive care. I've volunteered in a local place before, but New York wildlife regulation has a stick up its rear, so I'm not permitted to work directly with bats until I get a special license blah blah blah... Anyway, here I am, flown down to Texas on a triple transfer flight, where the wildlife rehab rules pretty much boil down to a person having common freaking sense and the reputation to prove they deserve the opportunity to save animals. I'm vaccinated and in pretty good health, so the rest is up to the instruction, which is phenomenal.

Today was my third day. You wake up in a dorm room, get ready for the day, and head to the main rehab area by 7am, usually finishing by around 11pm to midnight. The work is hard, and I can't stress that enough, but working with these animals, not to mention the founder of the organization as she and her assistant teach me, is amazing. I've met some great people, and I've met some great bats. I didn't quite understand the perspective of "meeting" a bat species, but now I understand; every species, every individual within the species, is unique. Being from New York, where the center treats them more like a chore than a way of life, and there are only nineteen, this is a breath of fresh air. THIS is what I imagined bat rehabilitation and training to be like.

It's such a huge event in my life. I have to credit Grey for his full support in making all this happen. Without him and his encouragement, I wouldn't have gotten to this point. Many come here, few can really to it. I seem to be off to a fantastic start according to Amanda Lollar, the founder, so I want to continue strong and finish strong. The real trick will be to keep fed, find the time to relax my mind, and keep calm without getting cocky. Too much praise can do that so easily.

Needless to say, when I get back to New York's facility, I'm going to so miss this place. I miss it already, and I haven't even left, so I need to stop looking forward to the days when I'll be at the northerly location.

In spite of missing Grey terribly and not being able to post updates or record footage much as I'd like on a daily basis (a half hour a day really isn't enough, and the only reason I'm posting now is because I was supposed to be in bed, but this is the only time I have to say anything), I can understand why; every MOMENT here is meant for rehab, not recreation. You are here to work, and you're going to do work.

This place is everything I hoped it would be, though none here really knew what was going on in the background with me anyway. It was a plan-on-the-go change in my life, within a week, literally. But the experience and the knowledge I'll come away with, let alone the confidence in myself, will be astronomical. I'm just floored I took to this better than expected. I'd been rightfully concerned and at the same time worried for nothing. : )

All those info books I collected to try to better understand bats can't even come close to what I'm learning here and experiencing here first-hand on a daily basis. In-freaking-credible.]]> Sat, 10 Jul 2010 02:34:34 WeBViRuS